So I'm going to Michigan in two days to be the best man in my best friend Jake's wedding! It's gonna be awesome. I've never been to that part of the country, so this is a chance to add to the places that I've been to in America. This season is a big transition. I'm finished with college officially and I graduate August 15! I'm thinking about looking into the Museum field because it utilizes so much History. I'm looking to move out of the house soon and to start taking care of myself. It's kinda scary because I've never done this before, but it's exciting! It's going to open wide a door for me to draw closer into the heart of my Father and depend solely on Him as my Daddy and Provider. I'm thinking that there's probably going to be some things I'm going to be doing that make absolutely no sense to human intuition, but that's part of walking with God. He says that if you don't work, you don't eat, but He also says that it's useless to worry about food, shelter, and clothing when he provides meager birds with this! It's a totally new arena that I've never fully felt and it's going to be uncomfortable and probably feel shaky, but it's going to allow me to walk more in His Spirit and less in reasoning my way through everything. It's going to be an adventure of the first order, and I believe that there are probably going to be times where I feel like everything that is me is crumbling and falling apart, but that's just when God comes in a rebuilds and shows me who I truly am! I have a hard time believing what God says about me, it's part of a lens that I've looked at myself through of almost self-loathing that started when I was in grade school. It's ridiculous how much stuff that we accept as a normal part of life, but it's not! It's seeds of wrong thinking about God, ourselves, the condition of the world around us, and the meaning of life that have been constantly planted by the Deceiver to attempt to separate us from Who we were made for and the Life that we were intended for. Survival of the fittest is a picture of this world after the Fall, it was never meant to be that way! That's why it's so crucial to get God's perspective on things, otherwise you're either going to lean towards being a leach on God and not being the person He calls you to be and doing what He calls you to do, or you're going to be like the people at the Tower of Babel and think it's all up to you and vainly try to make things happen. Neither is good. We were meant to play a part in God's plan - just because we are imperfect and erronous does not mean that He has removed that mandate that He gave Adam and Eve. However, we were meant to do things out of resting in Him - that is the whole point of Sabbath-resting in Him(which I believe is a spiritual posture in the New Covenant and has nothing to do with Sunday or Saturday, although resting 1 in 7 days is a good principal to follow). So, there are huge things in store for me! I'm still feeling that I'm going to be writing more and I really want to publish my stuff - not so much for fame and fortune(although that would be really cool), but because I want to show a perspective of the Gospel that shows God's intention redeem our past and restore our identity and draw us into the Adventure and Purpose that He created us for. I always seem to write stories about young men and their typical struggles, and I think that it is so crucial for young men in this time of rampant fatherlessness and masculine identity that is increasingly narrowing into macho-tough guy and sexual conquest, that they begin to understand themselves and the Story they were meant for. Regurgitating a bunch of Bible verses and memorizing stories out of the Bible is not going to cut it - that's trying to each Salvation through works! It's not selfish to want to know who you are and want to be caught up in the life that you were meant for, what's selfish is when people follow after their flesh by putting that as an idol by which they find redemption. The flesh wants to redeem itself it's own way, it wants to be the savior! Well, anyway, I could go on and on about this subject. It's deep and broad and too much to just write a short post about.
This is what is going on in my life right now. I'm connecting more and more with my friends, both old and new, and I've met some new friends who I hope to grow closer to.